I had only been home from Africa for one day when I picked up the phone to a call that I should have expected was coming, but one I never prepared for. They had warned me from the beginning. Girls from the house will run. Be prepared. Don’t get too attached. Don’t go all in for the one. Because they may run and you will be left heartbroken.
But I did. I went all in. I went all in because I believe everyone deserves to be ALL IN loved; no matter what their past or present or future looks like. I went all in knowing that it may not have good results. And that call brought me back to the word Freedom.
Then it was a week after being home from Africa. I was hardcore struggling to get through the week. Lies were constantly filling my head, and I was exhausted from fighting them all. I felt in bondage. And again I was brought back to this word freedom.
The picture that comes to mind when I think of Freedom is something like this:
Complete with flower crown and all. But for once defining something in words seemed impossible. Until I saw it. I saw freedom.
I went to the house that Sunday on a whim and there was a girl there. She had just gotten out of physical captivity. And she was dancing like literally no one was watching. She was laughing at how ridiculous she was, and she was truly JOYFUL. She was filled with joy when she had every reason to be filled with pain and hurt and sadness and fear.
And that’s when I realized what freedom is... Freedom is something you have to choose to walk in but something that is already yours as daughters of the King of Kings. Freedom is running into His Dreams for your life. Freedom is having a safe space to be yourself in. Freedom is running wildly where and how HE created you to be! Freedom is a fight, always. A fight against the lies; a fight against the bondages; a fight against the naysayers and badmouthers. But Freedom is a fight that we do with HIM, the One who has already won. Freedom is surrender. Freedom is REST for our souls. Freedom is joy and peace and love all wrapped in one. Freedom is what HE created us for.
Freedom in the end is a choice and it takes action. You can't choose freedom for someone; although I often wish we could. And you can't just speak freedom; you must also walk in it.
But in the end, freedom is always worth the fight.
