So many have asked me questions I can’t answer. Especially
friends and family I love dearly halfway across the world. It isn’t that I don’t
want to share the answers, but rather I have been asking God the exact same
questions. But this past year has been a journey of JUMPING then BECOMING.
I have had walls completely torn down. I have battled some
tough battles against fear and anxiety. I have daily struggled to keep faith in
the promises HE made while in Africa. I have had my perspective flipped upside
down and inside out. I have had so many words redefined I could actually write
a dictionary now. I have asked questions upon questions and only seem to get
more questions in return. I have made the wrong decisions and the right ones,
having people I love question both. I have jumped into the unknown and ran from
the unexpected.
But enough about me. I want to tell you about the Greatest
Travel Buddy through all of this. Because let me tell you, HE has been so
patient and persistent. HE has sent communities, but not just any community,
the most perfect for the season I’m in. HE has sent friends over coffee
pointing back to the truth when I seem to get off track. HE has sent safe
havens to REST through families, coffee shops, or homes. HE has literally flown
someone halfway across the world because I needed to hear something from the
exact person who said it. HE has used a six year old in Africa to call me on a
day I needed to know HIS love so much. HE has opened doors, closed doors, and
reminded me of HIS faithfulness.
Guys, HE doesn’t have to do any of that. Like seriously HE
is the King of Kings, and yet HE still cares immensely about my heart and where
I am and where I am going. That thought literally amazes me. That yes this
journey of “becoming” has been incredibly painful, but it has been so far one
of the most beautiful times in my life to get to be able to know HIM on a
deeper level.
To truly understand that we are a CHOSEN daughter (or son)
of the King of Kings. That we BELONG to HIM. That HE delights when we run to
HIM. That we have an ADVOCATE on our behalf. Let me just tell you, that one
blows my mind, and makes my orphan aching heart feel so much more loved.
Part of me craves normalcy, steadiness, and a safe haven. I’m
learning that can all be found in HIM. Because the part of me that craves
adventure, radical love, and crazy God moments is how HE made me.
Completely Soaking in His Love,
Elizabeth
